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1. Went to my favorite deli two Fridays back to treat myself to my favorite lunch meal. I hadn't been in months and months because a.) I'm attempting to lose weight and b.) I'm attempting to save money. While I was standing at the counter ordering my usual, the ladies (who run the place) both noticed I'd lost weight. That felt so freaking good. Also when I left, one of the ladies' (whom are an older mother/daughter combo) husband was outside - like usual - reading his paper and he commented on how slim I look too. I wouldn't go so far as to say slim yet, but I do feel slimmER. Anyway, it was a totally awesome experience. 2. I disappeared two weekends ago. I got to go to Valdosta and go camping with Russ & Karolyn and Jon-Michael. And we all had a super awesome time. The camping was fun because we went with a bunch of Russ' Air Force friends. His boss cooked a pig on a giant grill. There were water balloon catapults, Frisbee, football, paddle boats, and r...

Karolyn posted this after she and Russ' wedding. Probably the single decent picture of me that exists from that night. I never know how to just take a nice, classy picture. I'm the one without the tie on.

I think it's time to address something relevant. Jon-Michael's sister and my very good friend, Karolyn, is getting married this weekend. And I'll be attending her wedding. Our mutual friend, Vania, is having a party in May, which I'm fully expecting J.M. to attend because I don't know why it would happen any other way. Whether I end up ever holding his hand again or not, one thing is for certain - our lives are forever intertwined. Unless one of us decided to put distance between us and the core group of friends we share, we will inevitably find ourselves in positions of interaction. And if either of us was the kind of person who would be willing to wash their hands of their closest friends over a relationship fiasco, we would never have dated each other to begin with. It should be said now that as angry as I was, I still stand by his decision. In that moment and the moments leading up to it, he did what he thought was best. And I can't argue with that logic. I ...

Eight people I miss. Miss –verb (used with object) 1. to notice the absence or loss of 2. to regret the absence or loss of 3. loss; want; felt absence 1. Aunt Terry - She moved to Citra when I was in high school and when I was finally old enough to appreciate her particular demeanor, she was far more tame than I recalled her being. She still had it, but -- maybe because of my age -- it seemed more reigned in than I recall. She passed away in August of 2002, just after Susan's birthday, and several months before my graduation. She didn't miss Jeff's or Susan's graduations and for mine, not even death could keep her away -- she was still with me that day in the form of the rain that fell. To this day, I wonder if she knew she had cancer before she moved up here. If I could cross the barrier between this world and the afterlife, she's the first person I'd want to talk to again. 2. Grandma Scott (Eloise) - Who wouldn't miss their grandma after she p...